Losing Your Mind
Dear Blessed One,
And so it begins…
Many people are experiencing the shedding of conditioned mind as they awaken to their true nature. This process can be challenging and scary, especially for those strongly identified with the character of who they think they are.
I’ve been working with numerous people over the last couple of years who have popped into full kundalini awakenings. The greatest fear that arises is the fear that they’re losing their minds.
The first kundalini experience I had in April of 2008 burned so much from my field of awareness that I no longer really knew who I was. The world seemed awkward and I felt wobbly. There was so much energy coursing through me that I often felt like screaming. I was sure I was losing my mind. I was. Thank goodness. And it wasn’t easy!
Later that year I was eye-gazing with a friend (check Rumi’s awakening) and all of a sudden, another face came through that fractured my heart. I began weeping as I felt a love that I’d never felt before. I reached out to touch his face as I mumbled, “I miss you so much!” And then my friend’s face came back and he looked pretty puzzled.
My best guess of what happened is the energy of spirit connecting with spirit created a thinning of the veils so that I could receive perhaps an initiation from this teacher of long, long ago (or more correctly a parallel reality) as the final push through the eye of the needle. He appeared again a couple more times over the years, which helped me understand some uncomfortable predicaments I found myself in.
Had I not already experienced so much clearing from the kundalini awakening, I might have been quite scared. At that point I was fairly relaxed with the possibility that I was losing my mind.
And then pop, a week later I awakened.
Honor your process. Breeeeeathe into what’s happening. Losing your mind is not a bad thing. It was a valuable and necessary step in my process.
Look into the eyes of the Beloved. He or She is right in front of you. Pause there. Feel the movements of discomfort, stillness, joy, whatever arises and know that the power of the infinite is blessing you in that moment.
Much Love and Blessings to You,
shellee rae
“The light which shines in the eye is really the light of the heart. The light which fills the heart is the light of God, which is pure and separate from the light of intellect and sense.”
~ Rumi